About Me and my goals

To start my journey of finding something to believe in, I must tell you who I am and more about my self. I was born in the late eighties and was raised a Roman Catholic. I went to mass every week and because I went to a Catholic school it was twice a week. I have two married parents, two older brothers, and a younger sister. I started doubting my faith in highschool, yet I never spoke up because it was a Catholic school and I did not want to stick out. After highschool I went to a public college were I didn't have to go to church and I didn't because I always hated it. I could finally speak openly about my doubts about God and if he exists. I met a guy who opened me up to some uncoventional religions like wicca, and magick. He hasn't settled on anything yet but he knows there is something out there. I do not know if there is anything out there, and I want to believe so badly, but saying it is not enough because when I do, something inside of me says you are lying you do not believe. That is why I started this blog, I want to find answers to the questions I have, to find why others believe. In the hope it will help me believe.